I've gained 20 pounds since the last time I checked. At first I was in complete disbelief. How could this of happened? I went through a cycle of emotions. It's a long pity story to be honest. So I'll just skip to the end. Now I'm finally laughing. Legit laughing. I've gained 20 pounds because I'm finally happy. I'm finally truly happy because I am not working myself to death. I am finally free of every toxic relationship I entangled myself in. I'm finally eating without worry ... ing what I will look like in a bikini. (I used to be a cocktail server in Vegas. My job even weighed me regularly.) I finally am allowing myself to be loved and believing it. And thank God for my husband, who makes me feel like the most adored woman on the planet. I didn't know I had a body complex until the scale told me something I didn't want to see. I felt shattered inside. I was so happy until I knew the number of pounds I weighed? Which makes no sense! Mathew told me to stop looking at it and to ask myself how I felt before I knew the number. And the truth is, I felt damn good! So screw that! I've realized all that happened is I became 20 pounds happier! Ucenter Dress wedding collections With removable cap sleeves ???? # bodypositive # yogagirl # yoga # yogaeverydamnday